Now that I've pissed you all off.... just a quick post regarding how I feel at the moment.
I'm having trouble seeing the point of view that I just woke up one day and decided to stroll down the garden path to Hell.
Really not sure how leaving a school could make so many people so angry. And say so many hurtful things about my resolve, intellect, and perseverance.
Struggling with the fact that people make it their own business what I choose to do with my life.
This one is for you. This one is for the nay-sayers. This one is for that person so deeply rooted in their own personal decision that they struggle to accept anyone else's. And let me tell you- so many times in my life I've been told not to do this, don't live there, don't leave home, quit your job, get a job, get a different job, stop wasting your life, write me a song, stop writing music, go to church, go to Minnesota, be who I expect you to be God damn it, because in the end isn't that what it's about?
Here's my chance to say this out loud. FUCK. YOU.
If you think you can run my life better than I can, try spending all that extra energy on yourself. Because guess what: no one is impressed so far.
I'm taking the wind up mechanism off of my back. No one's running me.
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
In Which I Go Against Everything I've Ever Stood For.
I'm dropping out of school.
Yep, that's right...my mind is made up and it's not going back. This blog is intended for those who believe I've made a rash decision, who think I haven't thought it through enough, and to show that this is not giving up, but starting over.
I've been thinking a lot lately and talking to a lot of different people. While the consensus seems to be, among college students, that going to school is the be all end all of achieving success, a broader view of people seem to say no, there are alternate routes around.
I like to think of life as a sort of road trip. You start out not really knowing where you are headed, maybe you stop and ask directions at a gas station. But in reality, you are really in the drivers seat, with no mapquest directions to follow.
Most people today seem to think College is the superhighway to success. Going down alternate routes will only lead you astray, lost in the woods and out of gas. But in reality, College is only one road that most people choose to travel. But that does not make it the only road.
I've spoken to many different people, and most people whograduate from College are handed their piece of paper and think that they are prepared for what lies ahead. They go into jobs waving their diplomas and will probably get hired. But in reality, most of those people will find that the real experience they have been missing will come back to haunt them.
Living off ramen noodles and writing term papers will prepare you for just that. But working in a real-world environment shows that you have longevity and determination. The same as a college degree. While I would love to obtain a degree, at this point it seems a lost cause. Many factors at work with brand switching, pay cuts, flucuating hours and increased responsibilities have forced me to look again at my options.
I have not, since graduating from High School, written a single song. Aside from writing Romeo and Juliet for DHS, all my creative energy has been redirected to assignments, 40 hour weeks and practicing Musio Clementi's Sonatinas.
I have come to the conclusion that by pursuing a degree in music, I have, in essence, given up on what made me fall in love with the art in the first place. College cannot teach me the passion, ingenuity and emotion that used to define what I wrote before. And furthermore, constant drilling of musical laws and regulations have subconsciously boxed in my work.
My dropping out is, in a way, a breaking out of the standardized shell that schooling is effectively placing over me. Perhaps school may be your way out, but I've decided it is definitely not mine.
Yep, that's right...my mind is made up and it's not going back. This blog is intended for those who believe I've made a rash decision, who think I haven't thought it through enough, and to show that this is not giving up, but starting over.
I've been thinking a lot lately and talking to a lot of different people. While the consensus seems to be, among college students, that going to school is the be all end all of achieving success, a broader view of people seem to say no, there are alternate routes around.
I like to think of life as a sort of road trip. You start out not really knowing where you are headed, maybe you stop and ask directions at a gas station. But in reality, you are really in the drivers seat, with no mapquest directions to follow.
Most people today seem to think College is the superhighway to success. Going down alternate routes will only lead you astray, lost in the woods and out of gas. But in reality, College is only one road that most people choose to travel. But that does not make it the only road.
I've spoken to many different people, and most people whograduate from College are handed their piece of paper and think that they are prepared for what lies ahead. They go into jobs waving their diplomas and will probably get hired. But in reality, most of those people will find that the real experience they have been missing will come back to haunt them.
Living off ramen noodles and writing term papers will prepare you for just that. But working in a real-world environment shows that you have longevity and determination. The same as a college degree. While I would love to obtain a degree, at this point it seems a lost cause. Many factors at work with brand switching, pay cuts, flucuating hours and increased responsibilities have forced me to look again at my options.
I have not, since graduating from High School, written a single song. Aside from writing Romeo and Juliet for DHS, all my creative energy has been redirected to assignments, 40 hour weeks and practicing Musio Clementi's Sonatinas.
I have come to the conclusion that by pursuing a degree in music, I have, in essence, given up on what made me fall in love with the art in the first place. College cannot teach me the passion, ingenuity and emotion that used to define what I wrote before. And furthermore, constant drilling of musical laws and regulations have subconsciously boxed in my work.
My dropping out is, in a way, a breaking out of the standardized shell that schooling is effectively placing over me. Perhaps school may be your way out, but I've decided it is definitely not mine.
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